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Today is a beautiful clear day..probably to be mid-nineties..but it is another gift .
Blessings surround us moment by moment..Do we see all that is there?
I have been given so much in my life..Wonderful momma who has the patience and kindness and goodness like no other..a tremendously giving husband that shares himself and loves me and our Father God and our families..My Kels who truly has a love and a passion for her wonderful gift (singing) and recognizes that her life is purposeful..(She will be a great teacher one day) Kimber..ooooh Kimber..my first born.Learning not so easy life lessons.Trying to 'be' and become..my hope for her is to grow with less hurt and mature with a true love of herself..
Lately I have been perusing the blogs I love..finding antiques, vintage sussies, wonderful altered artsy treasures created by gifted talented people..and thinking about my creative nature and WHY? I don't push myself to 'get into it'..I have always had this 'eye' to see things differently and put treasures together to make a pleasing arrangement of some sort..but I have recently lost the interest in this..
WHY? So, inspired by blogs of creative & giving people, I have wrapped myself up in the world of blogdom to find the push...I'm getting there..I really am..I'm on a hunt for the piece of my self that gives me permission to explore beyond my small day to day world .. I mentioned to a good friend one day that I felt like I was putting myself on restriction...I don't want to live restricted..I want to free myself from this..everyone around me accepts me 'just as I am' but..there is more there.. More that I expect from myself, more that I want from myself, more that I owe myself and my loved ones...Today is a new day..I broke my silence..NOW let's see where we go from here..
I'm blessed to have this day...
Deb